I was preparing an alternative piece for this week. You were going to be reading yet another essay documenting my own progressive journey toward living — better. Last night I began writing about work, financial, and optimal wellness goals for 2018.
The first rule of depression is we don't talk about depression. The second rule of depression is we don't talk about depression. I'm a rule follower. I don't make waves. I internalize my feelings, but only after denying them. I go to my cave. I distract myself. I self judge. I don't ask for help. I didn't talk about depression.